Refreshing !

In & Out

Some are born great, some achieve greatness and some have greatness thrust upon them.

Some are born mad, some achieve madness and some bring madness upon them and those around them.

Unfortunately greatness and madness go hand in hand.

What makes all the difference is striking the right the balance ... Its called making a choice !

Day of Revelations

They say anger greatly reduces the functionality of our brain's logic centres but somehow to my surprise I've learnt the reverse is also true.

I suddenly have answers to so many questions that have puzzled me for the longest time.

And today (now) I can actually sit back and laugh at the ridiculousness of the whole affair. I mean what a fool I've been, its all been so obvious from the start.

Conclusion ? All that thought, energy, emotion, time and even stress ... everything wasted in such an eloquently elegant way ? ... Hmmmnnn ...

Well I don't think so ...

I suppose I've come out of this a lot wiser. Call it 'experience'. At least I now know everything I should internalise with a pinch of salt.

Any Regrets ? ... Ummmnn ... Not really courtesy the experience and the learnings. Though I wish this moment had come much earlier. Would have saved me incredible amounts of time and effort.

Earthquake !

... Moderate Tremors ...

Should be at least 5 on the Richter scale ...

When Insults Had Class !

"He has all the virtues I dislike and none of the vices I admire." --Winston Churchill

"I have never killed a man, but I have read many obituaries with great pleasure." -- Clarence Darrow.

"He has never been known to use a word that might send a reader to the dictionary." -- William Faulkner (about Ernest Hemingway)

"I've had a perfectly wonderful evening. But this wasn't it." -- Groucho Marx

"I didn't attend the funeral, but I sent a nice letter saying I approved of it" -- Mark Twain

"He has no enemies, but is intensely disliked by his friends." -- Oscar Wilde

"I am enclosing two tickets to the first night of my new play; bring a friend... If you have one." -- George Bernard Shaw to Winston Churchill

... (followed by Churchill's response)

"Cannot possibly attend first night, will attend second, if there is one." -- Winston Churchill

"I feel so miserable without you; it's almost like having you here." -- Stephen Bishop

"He is a self-made man and worships his creator." -- John Bright

"I've just learned about his illness. Let's hope it's nothing trivial."--Irvin S. Cobb

"He is not only dull himself; he is the cause of dullness in others." -- Samuel Johnson

"He is simply a shiver looking for a spine to run up." -- Paul Keating

"He had delusions of adequacy." -- Walter Kerr

"Why do you sit there looking like an envelope without any address on it?" -- Mark Twain

"His mother should have thrown him away and kept the stork." -- Mae West

"Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go." -- Oscar Wilde

Lady Astor once remarked to Winston Churchill at a dinner party, "Winston, if you were my husband, I would poison your coffee!" Winston replied,"Madam if I were your husband I would drink it!"

Mr. Intellectual Once Said ...

"I must say that I find TV very educational. Everytime somebody turns it on, I go to the library and read a book."

So much for all the hours of research we put in...

Experience

It's not our abilities that show what we truly are ... It's our choices.

That's what differentiates us from the rest of everybody out there.

... And choices usually are like a double edged sword!

So the next time you make one, be damn sure of what you decide. You might not get another chance.

Reinventing the Wheel

Some of life's toughest lessons can never be taught ... They just have to be lived, experienced and felt to be learnt.

Yet another night ...

Physically exhausted

Mentally drained

&
Wide awake

What ?

I did'nt do it ...
I did'nt control it ...
I can't cure it ...

Chaotic Logic

Flip through any book of quotable quotes and its more than likely that you'll find the famous lecturer and essayist of the 19th century, Ralph Waldo Emerson declaring with the strongest conviction...

“Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen.”

... Profound... That's what any leadership guru will say. And of course all those who've paid tons of money to hear him faff will shake their heads in unison.

And now the entire thing has been taken to ridiculous levels, courtesy the latest Bollywood money spinner 'Om Shanti Om'. Watch as Shahrukh Khan eloquently uses a mildy distorted version of Emerson's fabled belief more than 6 times to make it the film's punch line ...

May I implore the esteemed brains of this world to please take a moment and think about what Mr. Emerson believed to be so true and what 99% percent of today's advise / love gurus use to make money...

I mean think about it ... if simply deciding was enough to force things to happen, life would have been so damn neat.
Hell ... I want / had decided to be the richest guy in the world in pre school !
The Result - All the conspiracies have happened ... life is a goddamn mess and I am nowhere bloody close to it.

And then I read somewhere 'you need to decide from your heart and not just your brian ....'

Bull Shit !

A Slice Of My Life

If ever in my lifetime I make the mistake of being lost between fantasy and reality, remind of a story. Its called...

'The Little Pink Frock & A Box of Cadbury's Gems'

Morning Glory

A smile erupted from the very depths of his heart and spread across his face like the morning sun

P.S. - Kindly excuse the photgraphic quality. Picture taken on a humble 3.2 MP cell phone camera.

Scorpio

I was recently gifted a coffee mug by a very dear friend. Inside the nicely packaged box was a parchment (reproduced below) that supposedly told me the tale of my personality traits.
That I was born under the sign of Scorpio is no secret but am I the Scorpio as detailed in the parchment ?
Well...

Scorpio
October 23 To November 21

Passionate & Determined

Scorpio is the eighth sign of the zodiac. Those born under this Sign are dead serious about their mission to learn about others. There's no fluff or chatter for Scorpios either; these folks will zero in on the essential questions, gleaning the secrets that lie within.

Scorpios concern themselves with the beginnings and endings and are unafraid of either; they also travel in a world which is black and white and has little use for grey. Its the scorpion which symbolises Scorpios and its no accident. Much like the Scorpion that would rather kill itself that be killed.

Those born under this sign are the ones who are in ultimate control of their destiny. Fearless Scorpio's rarely lose. They just keep going on since they are stubborn and determined to succeed.
They tend to skip the kiss and get on straight to whatever comes next.

Scorpio's Key Phrase - I create

Scorpio's Pick-up line - You're place or mine ?

Scorpio's Colours - Deep Red, Black & Indigo

Scorpio's Gems - Bloodstone, Opal & Garnet
Scorpio's Metal - Plutonium
Scorpio's Coffee Choice - Never prone to self denial, Scorpio opts for all the sensuality of a latte. One can barely taste the coffee but isn't subtlety the name of the game

Simple Pleasures of Life

Sin Delicious

Did you know that Barista Coffee has an extremely indulgent dessert on their menu ?

Its called Dark Temptation !
(Warm chocolate Excess served with ice cream and whipped cream, topped with hot chocolate fudge)

Now that's what I call absolute ecstasy !

Hhmmmnnnn..........

Small Fires

Read this on a box of matches.

A fine is a tax for doing wrong. A tax is a fine for doing well.

Talk about small revolutions.

Watched

At the stroke of the midnight hour while the terrorists plotted and the robbers planned ... I found my watch.

All I now hope for is 'World Peace' !

Principle of Selectivity

The flip side of secularism is that you are free to be a fundamentalist.

Incredible but sadly true.

Line of Fire

What wrong have I done to deserve the pain, anguish and madness that seems to govern my life ?

Do I really deserve this ?

I hope not and pray not !

At times I wonder ... Do I expect too much from myself ?

The Drunken Duck

In all my experience of being around drunken / sloshed men & women, I've figured that behavior of all such people can be classified into 6 broad categories.

1. Boastful
2. Stupid Anger
3. Extreme grief
4. Mirthless laughter or happiness
5. Baseless affection / romance / sexual attraction
6. Idiotic philosophy

Can sum it all in two words - Raving lunacy

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

'...so God said "Let their be light" and there was light...'

In a setting just as theatrical I've come to realize and understand a few things about myself. And so as has become customary, I shall let my new found divine enlightenment known to the cybernetic world.

1. I hate / condemn / frown upon (as applicable)

a) Self pity & people who indulge in it.

b) Two faced people (crooks). In fact I happen to know a certain variety of Hydra as well.

c) Lack of common sense.

d) Verbal diarrhoea. (senseless stuff)

e) Stubborn dolts.

f) Gay pride parade. I mean I'm straight but I don't go parading down the damn street with a flag advertising it.

g) Certain bitches & bastards. I tolerate a lot of them.

i) The statement 'True love is ...' & the question 'What is true love?'

F*** Off ! Do some work.

j) Show offs. Specially the yuppie puppies.

k) Pseudo class.

2. I love / admire / respect (as applicable)

a) Intelligent, honest, simple and straightforward people. I belive this genre of humankind forms a microscopic percentile that I'm still searching for.

b) Hardworking people with a sense of responsibility and purpose.

c) Selfless people. I'm not advocating anyone to be a sage and renounce the world but simply referring to those who are empathetic to others.

d) Nature.

e) Small pleasures of life.

f) Photography, computers, books, music & movies.

g) My friends.

i) Quest for knowledge. The constant endeavour to better oneself.

k) Money

3. Realizations

a) A Matter of Convenience

After 27 years of existence I have finally learnt the benefits of doing things to suit my convenience. For the perfectionist that I am I've understood that saving lives is not my profession. I just need to do my best and that's it. (period) You might argue "but that's how it should be." Well, I used to usually put my entire life's worth into anything I did. But not anymore. I do a job, like a job and to the very best of my ability (no compromises there). Its just that I no longer make it my life's work. Its not worth it.

Recently, I was asked if I plan to implement the 'Convenience' principle in my personal life. Earlier I wasn't very keen about the whole thing but with the breaking dawn I've realised I seem to be the only idiot not doing so. So well ... here goes.

b) Nothing is impossible because everything is possible. Naturally I am talking about practical stuff.

c) Chaos Theory stands true.

d) People who bull shit go a long way. But I'm still not going to do it. (knowingly)

e) True love is a myth.

f) Life always comes a full circle.

Thank you for your patience.

Sincerely yours,

The Saint.

Issued In Public Interest (Version 1)

The Pursuit of Happiness

The United States' Declaration of Independence lists three aspects as the "unalienable rights" of man - "Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness". Penned by Thomas Jefferson and often referred to as the 'Great American Dream' this phrase has motivated millions. Infact so strong and deep is its influence that people across the world waste their entire lives in an attempt to live up to it.

When I say waste it is not my intention to vandalise the belief of others but its simply that like F. Scott Fitzgerald I am rather uncomfortable with the unrestrained materialism and lack of morality that creeps in with it.

For me happiness is a moment in time and a state of mind where one feels that 'life is good'. Its pointless to waste time and effort searching for peace and contentment and joy in the world outside. Happiness is something extremely personal, its more than just an experience of joy or pleasure.

Today, I think I have learnt to revel in those moments and then move on ...

The Game

If you've seen 'The Game' (starring Micheal Douglas) you'll understand what I mean when I say that nothing is impossible to plot, plan or execute.

But when the best laid plans crumble right before thy eyes. It feels terrible in fact it feels horrible or sad or worse...

Q1. Why does this happen ?

Q2. How do I prevent it from happening again ?

Q3. How do I control the variables repsonsible ?

Q4. Do the variables want to be controlled ?

Q5. Do I really want to control the variables ?

Q6. Does it really matter ? (remember ... horrible ... terrible ... sad)

(...and please lets stop blaming poor destiny for everything because destiny cannot even control itself let alone the chaos of the world)

Angry

Pissed as hell ?

Oh yes!
I am ...

The Story of My Life

There are various kinds of stories.

1. Real life stories
2. Reel life stories
3. Life stories
4. Real stories
5. Larger than life stories
6. Metaphysical stories
7. Mythical stories
8. Mad stories
9. Fantasy stories
10. Dreamworld world
11. Crazy stories
12. Moral stories
13. Immoral stories
14. False stories
15. Cooked up stories
16. Thought of stories
17. Candy floss stories
18. Bed time stories
19. Moon light stories
20. Fairy stories
21. War stories
22. Peace stories
23. Hate stories
24. Horror stories
25. Practical stories
26. Sad Stories
27. Happy stories
28. Love stories
29. Heartbreak stories
30. Bitchy stories
31. Confused stories

The list goes on

Helloooooooo ............... Which one is mine ?

Colour Blind? ... Try Black & White.

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 4 !

Why O why does the human race perceive the world with all its seemingly immense possibilities as vivid high definition multi million colour shades ?

Its always the same story - the eternal search for perfection... the exact meaning... the right understanding... the electrifying connect... the right motive... Blah... Blah... Blah...

The problem is that our processing power is limited and we get thoroughly confused by the sheer number and complexity of shades that the spectrum of life presents. This inevitably leads to total chaos.

What nobody seems to understand is that life with all its possibilities will become much simpler to comprehend and far easier to tackle if we were to simply interpret everything as single blocks of Black & White. Simply put; just use logic and give up interpretation and analysis.

Now I have on several occassions been informed that this is impossible.
But ladies and gentlemen, trust me ... Try and thy shall succeed.

Afterall logic, though rare is not impossible to find.

Heres a hint - begin with common sense.

Romantic Reality

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 3 !

Why O why does the human race need to romanticize everything ?
By everything I mean right from the mole to the mountain.
Why can't people just get real. And that includes me

Romance
[n., adj. roh-mans, roh-mans; v. roh-mans]
noun, verb, -manced, -manc·ing, adjective

1. a novel or other prose narrative depicting heroic or marvelous deeds, pageantry, romantic exploits, etc., usually in a historical or imaginary setting.
2. the colorful world, life, or conditions depicted in such tales.
3. a medieval narrative, originally one in verse and in some Romance dialect, treating of heroic, fantastic, or supernatural events, often in the form of allegory.
4. a baseless, made-up story, usually full of exaggeration or fanciful invention.
5. a romantic spirit, sentiment, emotion, or desire.
6. romantic character or quality.
7. a romantic affair or experience; a love affair.
8. (initial capital letter) Also, Romanic. Also called Romance languages. the group of Italic Indo-European languages descended since a.d. 800 from Latin, as French, Spanish, Italian, Portuguese, Romanian, Provençal, Catalan, Rhaeto-Romanic, Sardinian, and Ladino. Abbreviation: Rom. –verb (used without object)
9. to invent or relate romances; indulge in fanciful or extravagant stories or daydreams.
10. to think or talk romantically. –verb (used with object)
11. Informal. a. to court or woo romantically; treat with ardor or chivalrousness: He's currently romancing a very attractive widow. b. to court the favor of or make overtures to; play up to: They need to romance the local business community if they expect to do business here. –adjective
12. (initial capital letter) Also, Romanic. of, pertaining to, or noting Romance: a Romance language.

—Synonyms 1. story, fiction. 4. falsehood, fable. 6. allure, fascination, exoticism.

Fluoxetine Hydrochloride

Either pay me half a million rupees (5 lakhs) a month or give me 5 tablets of Prozac everyday.
Thanks.

Food 4 Thought !

"Please don't mistake my anal retentiveness for actual affection"
-Desperate Housewives

For the record I haven't seen a single episode till date ...

Knee Jerk Reaction to Ha Ha Ha...

Guess what my boss just told me - emphatically ... "Your problem is that your (my) character is embedded in the first poem. Be the second."

And here I thought I was just being a normal guy ... Damn !

Ha Ha Ha ...

Here's a brilliant forward I received !

WOMAN'S POEM
Before I lay me down to sleep,
I pray for a man, who's not a creep,
One who's handsome, smart and strong.
One who loves to listen long,
One who thinks before he speaks,
One who'll call, not wait for weeks.
I pray he's gainfully employed,
When I spend his cash, won't be annoyed.
Pulls out my chair and opens my door,
Massages my back and begs to do more.
Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind,
Knows what to answer to 'how big is my behind?'
I pray that this man will love me to no end,
And always be my very best friend.

MAN'S POEM
I pray for a deaf-mute nymphomaniac with huge boobs
who owns a liquor store and a golf course.
This doesn't rhyme and I don't give a sh*t

Before Sunrise...

... Clap of thunder
Streak of lightening
Touch of zephyr ...

BUT

No soaring emotions
No heightened spirits
No great expectations

JUST

Calm
Cold
Clinical

Is this me ?

Constant Change

The eternal constant.

Sometimes positive ... sometimes negative .... and at times unbearable.

If its there, its there for a reason .... After all every action has an equal an opposite reaction. So in essence the reaction (change) is a always courtesy of some action.

One may hate it ... one may love it ... but nobody can ignore it.

Simply Perfect ...

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 2 !

Why O why is perfection completely attainable in almost everything except in things that one truly wants to be perfect ?

Some say its ... Destiny
Some ... Fate
Others ... Chaos
The rest just blame it on sheer bad luck.

Moral of the story ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ??? ??? ???

Heavens above ... Answer this !

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 1 !

Why O why do women without discrimination of religion, colour, race, caste or creed absolutely love to be told that they are the most beautiful creatures in the world ? Every time? Everyday?

The Predicament

What happens when two sides are faced with a situation where their interests lie on different tracks?
Needless to say that it’s a high voltage situation with a long list of variables where the stakes are sky high and the losses are mounting.

What options are available to the two sides?
What do they do ?

What can they do ?

Let’s take a hard analytical look at this problem. Broadly they have 3 logical solutions.

1. Discuss the problem in a civilized manner and come to a mutually agreeable solution i.e. find a solution through which both gain. Together they decide to overcome obstacles and walk out victorious. In short they live happily ever after.

2. Discuss the problem in a civilized manner and come to a compromise so they don’t exactly live happily ever after but agree to live and let live i.e. they decide to stay out of each other’s hair. In short status quo is maintained.

3. Aha … Here lies the problem !
This is called a standoff. Talks breakdown or reach a point where Options 1 and 2 are just not viable for any one of the two sides or maybe for both. What should be done …

Solution 3 (a) -> Declare war – To the end …
Solution 3 (b) -> Start public campaigns to swing general opinion in ones favor and try to influence the outcome.
Solution (c) -> Use subversive and covert means to spread rumors, image hurting operation etc.

But what happens if both sides are intelligent and civilized people, who value trust, honesty and practice non violence? (Worse they belive in it !) Should they be forced to suffer the consequences of their good intentions ?

No ... !

That’s exactly my point … NO.

But then ‘What do they do ?’ ...

What to do and What not to do ?’

The Eternal Madness of the Unquiet Mind

Today, the so called Master of Disaster Management feels completely blown away. I've always managed my way out of the worst and the most impossible of situations but for once I have no solution to my predicament.

Its almost as if my my mind is playing 'Ring a ring O'Roses' and is forcing me to fall down.

Maybe I've lost my touch ... completely.

I'm tired ...

What I need is a miracle ...

... Afterglow

Here I am, lost in the light of the moon that comes through my window
Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses
It's you and the roses

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way when I see your eyes
Now I'm living in your afterglow

Here I am, lost in the ashes of time, but who wants tomorrow?
In between the longing to hold you again
I'm caught in your shadow, I'm losing control
My mind drifts away, we only have today

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way
I will sacrifice 'til the blinding day when I see your eyes
Now I'm living in your afterglow

When the faith has gone as I let you go, as I let you go

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way, I will sacrifice
Now I'm living in your afterglow

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses
It's you who is closest

The Saint

Today a question that honestly deserves some introspection was fired at me and that too straight out of the blue... (The text is not verbatim)

Are you really as saintly as you appear to be in terms of women or ... ?

Taken aback by the way this googly was tossed at me, I was at first a little unsure about the way I was required to answer this question. Sense however prevailed and I managed the answer but not before I quizzed my interviewer about the defination of the term 'Saintly'.

My Question : How does one define the term 'saintly' and what does 'in terms of women' mean ?
This probe found me the following answer.
Unsaintly behavior in terms of women - Person who flirts with the intent of oogling and may take immense pleasure in doing so. (There are some who do it compulsively)

My answer was somewhat close to the following ... I'm a guy and I'm straight so essentially I have my beliefs and my thoughts in the right place (Fact). And I definately don't oogle at women because I consider it extremely obscene and an invasion of privacy. I don't deny an occasional flirting on my part but its limited to ladies who know me well and who I hope have the mindspace and intellegence for it. My apologies but I have no patience for dumb women (or anyone for that matter).

My answer did not seem to completely satisfy my quizmaster so another twist was popped on me.

So are you implying that you are not interested in women and that you don't look at them?

Me : Well as I mentioned before I'm straight. But there is a definate fat line of distnction between oogling and what we men call a quick scan or glance.

Quizmaster : Hmmnnnn.... (the topic drifted to something else)

Much later in the evening it occured to me that human actions and opinions are to a huge degree precipitated by past experiences and the emotional traces that they leave. So there are usually some undercurrents that linger through and manage to affect the way we percieve situations.

In my case ... I think I'll just say ... Once smitten forever shy.

Time Machine

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins
And now, I don't care
I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can't touch
I'm torn

- Natalie Imbruglia

The Illusion of Choice

"...the problem indeed is the choice itself, one which would not be present without the very predication of the anomaly, the remainder, the incalculable sense of hope, but also the endlessly deferred affirmative difference."

Dreamy Desire

I've always maintained that to get what you desire in life, all it takes is a blend of three simple ingredients.

(a) Lots of common sense
(b) A healthy measure of creative energy
(c) And a dash of dream (worth chasing)

Materialistic or otherwise ... This concoction always gets you there ... well almost always.

Its this dream, the smallest measure of all ingredients that fuels the fire of imagination and brews the blend of both senses. But it is here that lies the problem.
Confused ! I'll explain ...

We as human beings have two centres of thought (my views only).

(a) The Brain ... determined, cold, calculating, methodical, hard and selfish.
(b) The Heart ... illusionist, fickle yet rigid in belief, unconditional and a traveler of sorts.

Now a desire or wish that we so ardently want fulfilled is something that the heart usually comes across on one of its travels. (Exceptions to the rule exist in the form of needs which are better perceived by the brain) The dream of seeing that desire fulfilled is nothing but an illusion of the heart that sets ablaze the fuel to kick start the tremendous power of the brain. So phenomenal is this power that once unleashed it does not rest till the desire is no longer a dream but a reality. In other words our common and creative senses jointly referred to as logic take over.

Sounds good ... doesn't it. So where is the problem ... Hmmnnn ... good question !

The problem lies in the heart. For it is here that the desire takes birth and dream takes wings. And its this flight of fantasy that our brain attempts to rationalize. Moral of the story - Logic has a foundation in air !

If only I had understood this earlier ... Life would have been so much simpler. But would it have been as beautiful as it was while I chased this dreamy desire ... No !

So what should I do ... listen to heart or my brain ?
Because both are right on all counts !!! Yes. They are !
I don't know...

As for me ... I've been left with an incredible imprint that will last an eternity and perhaps ... even longer ... !

Things money can't buy ...

Colleague : Hey! I'm just stepping out to the malls for a spot of shopping. Do you want me to get you something ?

Me : Peace of mind ...

Colleague : !#$%^&*()_+{}}":?><

Me : Never mind ...

Eternal Fragrance

Incredible Junction - The Transit

For once I wanted to take a long flight ... To fly beyond my space ... Without thinking about so many things ... But then reality took over ... And I curtailed myself.

Now some chapters from my book will have to be closed ... But their fragrance will stay forever ... Till ETERNITY !

01:14:24 AM
Sunday, 18 March, 2007

Today's Fortune

The heart is wiser than the intellect.

Me : Is it ... ?

Analysis and Interpretation !

This Valentines most sought after 'Doctor Ship's (Relationship's) advice !

(By the way from this day hence, I (Dr Ship) am going to start charging for all the advise that I give ... no matter what the topic)

Okay .... All agony aunts and uncles, several councillors, psychologists, psychiatrists and matchmakers will be out of job if couples with troubled relationships follow this one advise.

If you have a problem with your whoever ... Don't brood over them ... Discuss them.
Break the problem down ... Don't break down ... Talk it out.
Don't just sit there thinking what he/she said and what he/she meant. Its just not worth the trouble ... trust me. Instead just walk over ... get into a solution mode and request your partner in crime to do the same and thrash that issue out.

The moment couples get into the analysis and interpretation of what was said and what it meant or worse what was intended or indicated or implied or any such intangible confusion ... disaster reigns !

If despite your best efforts your other half (note : I'm not saying better) refuses to participate in your efforts ... Follow the Traffic Signs! (simplest signals ever created)

Stop ... Look ... Move ON !
(open to analysis and interpretation ... ha ha Got you there !!! Well get your thinking caps on !)

And to make things light at the end of this extremely difficult lesson, here's a forward that I got today....


A man walking along a California beach was deep in prayer.

Suddenly the sky clouded above his head and, in a booming voice, the Lord said,
"Because you have TRIED to be faithful to me in all ways, I will grant you one wish."

The man said, "Build a bridge to Hawaii so I can drive over anytime I want."

The Lord said, "Your request is very materialistic. Think of the enormous challenges for that kind of undertaking. The supports required to reach the bottom of the Pacific! The concrete and steel it would take! It will nearly exhaust several natural resources. I can do it, but it is hard for me to justify your desire for worldly things. Take a little more time and think of something that would honor and glorify me."

The man thought about it for a long time.

Finally he said, "Lord, I wish that I could understand my girlfriend. I want to know how she feels inside, what she's thinking when she gives me the silent treatment, why she cries, what she means when she says 'nothings wrong,' and how I can make a woman truly happy."

The Lord replied, "You want two lanes or four on that bridge?"

Make time or Miss out ...

Davies the poet who got nothing of what he deserved but still managed to simplify the choas of modern life into words that will continue to reverberate even in the eaons to come ... I salute you.

'Leisure'
- By William Henry Davies

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.

A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

Five For Fighting

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird
I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd
But don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won’t you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away, away from me
It’s all right
You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy, or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me.....inside of me

It’s not easy to be me

Should Truth Prevail ?

I think honesty and truth are not synonymous with each other ... just like excellence is not synonymous with perfection ...

But then this is what I think ... and these days I don't really think that matters much.

The very meaning of a 'Meaningful Life ...'

Recently while on one of my endless drives back from office I was assaulted with a question. Endless because the traffic crawls slower than an earthworm and assaulted because I was a million miles away trying to breakdown the theory of the infamous Freudian slip. (After Willy he's next ...)

She : What do you think is the meaning of having a meaningful life ?
Me : Whoa !!! Where did that come from ??? (To both myself and her)

She : No. Generally.
Me : Well...
(Suddenly jolted out of my reverie ... I managed not to come up with an instant answer which would in any case have been very hollow)
Me : I think .... It could mean different things to different people ... (my voice faded off)

All possible answers beginning from the mystical to the mythical and even the metaphysical seemed to flow through my head but nothing clicked.

In the very awkward silence that followed the sound emanating from my car's stereo seemed rather loud ... I turned it down. The traffic moved another pace but the silence remained unbroken. On another day or at another time this question might not have instigated my brain cells the way it did then. Perhaps it was the intensity with which the question was put that forced me into a thoughtful coma ...

Next Day.

I enter office too busy with my 'To Do' list to lend any further thought to the question that had plagued my mind the previous day...
And then I saw it. A framed poster that's been hanging in my office for all the five years that I have worked here. Its a poster that displays the famous monologue voiced over by Mark Renton at the beginning of the film, Trainspotting.

And I thought maybe there's something here (pasted below) !!!

Its titled - Choose Life. Pardon the liberal use of the F word ... not my taste but it had to be a true representation.

Choose Life.
Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourself.

Choose your future.

Choose life.

Whats The Scene ...

Restless energy
Super good weather
Nowhere to go
Tired mind
Too much work
Boring atmosphere
Emotional mind
No relief
Cloudy night sky
Ray of light
Second chance
Desperate measures
Clap of thunder
Depth of silence
So little time
Hope...

Ask ?

I just read this very interesting quote ...

'Its better to ask twice than than to loose your way once.'

And I think it makes a lot of sense !

Shakespearean Verdict

After the longest three days of my life I've decided that you my friend Mr. Shakespeare had no clue about your own dilemma ...

Sorry William since I am in no position to pass a verdict on myself (at all) ... better you than me !

By the way Willy did you ever believe in miracles ?... You know ... I mean I don't know ... maybe someday ... somewhere... I'll be surprised !!!

Till then ... IS Life Beautiful ?

Ya Ya ... I know "All the world's a stage ... " blah blah blah........

Well well well "Play On ..."

Dream Junction ...

Its past 4:00 AM and I have been staring at my blank screen for several hours now. My only company in this sleepless quest has been the untiring cursor, the hum of my laptops fan and a tired but worried and anxious brain that's been gushing forth a steady stream of thoughts.

While I stood at the Incredible Junction, mesmerised by what I saw, felt and perceived; I had promised not to analyse or interpret any of the myriad scapes that it presented. Today I'm still there ... but today I'm worried that this dream that I have so ardently chased might forever just remain a dream...

What should I do ?

Should I just stand there and let the world go by and then hope for the best ? (this is what I am doing at present)

OR Should I do what I've always practiced myself and also advised others to do (in all aspects) ... "Accept life only at your own terms because you yourself have the power to write your own destiny..."

Why is it that suddenly my own philosophy that I have so religiously followed has suddenly deserted me?
But isn't that what I really want? And isn't this is just another means to attain my goal. But do the means justify the goal ? ... NO (period)
Is what I want really matter? ... I don’t know...

Maybe I am living in a dream world and this dream that I'm chasing is a part of the dream world... I don't know...

What I do know is that I don't want to wake up? For once I don’t...
And somehow I fear I will …

What Now ?

My dear friend William Shakespeare once wrote -
"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances ..."

Then Why O Why did you Mr. Shakespeare write this -
"To be, or not to be: that is the question."

Because my life currently revolves around it and for once I have no solution !

Incredible Junction !

I've always loved travelling - moving on in search of something new and fresh, for ideas and experiences that will help me unravel the mysteries of the world that surrounds me.

BUT ... but today ... its different.

I don't know how to explain this but for once I don't just wish to take off into the horizon that has always enchanted me. Instead I want to be here in my comfort zone that has so recently covered me up in a cozy cocoon and consumed every second of my thinking.

I don't know where this will lead ... I've never ever experienced anything quite like this !
Maybe I'm just chasing a dream ... But then some dreams are worth chasing !