Quest World

Invictus

2010-06-21T01:12:00.000+05:30

I'm the master of my fate,
I'm the captain of my soul.

- William Ernest Henley

So help me God...

2010-03-15T01:34:00.001+05:30

Its not uncommon for me to hear comments like 'you are a people's person' Or 'you have an affect over people' Or 'you are a great talker' Or 'you know how to handle people'.

To be honest I am nothing of the above. I am just a very average person who does his best to keep his head afloat. But what I can never match are people's expectations. Be it my family or friends or colleagues, I am always expected to play this super effecient, always perfect, flawless, charming, creative, super dedicated person 24x7 .... But hey am I really this person, I don't know. Why? Well because I've been playing this part for so long that its difficult to really know what my own traits are like. And to make make matters worse, to falter now will mean banishment into oblivion.

How long can I do this? How long do I have to live in the constant fear of making mistakes? How long will it be before I am forgiven for the mistakes I might have made? How will long will it be before I am absloved of the crimes I did not commit? How long will it be before I before I get my long overdue credit? How long ...

The answer is - I don't know... Maybe its not anybody's fault & maybe its just mine. Maybe I've just not understood things ... Not understood people & their expectations. May be they are all right & I'm wrong & then maybe I'm right too....

Whatever be the answer ... The point is that my mind continues to race & sleep is still hard to come by...

Point to Ponder

2008-11-02T00:04:00.002+05:30

"Beauty is a summation of the parts working together in such a way that nothing is needed to be added, taken away or altered"

Elio Carletti (1925 - 1980)

Enigma

2008-10-14T01:26:00.001+05:30

A mountain bathed in moonlight,
Bone chilling minus 9 degrees,
Howling Himalayan wind...

...Desolate, Intense & Stunning

I love wild cats!

2008-10-02T23:05:00.002+05:30

P.S. The Mysterious Ones !!!

02 October 2008

2008-10-02T23:01:00.002+05:30

After months of non stop work, Gandhi Jayanti's holiday came as a pleasant surprise. A much need holiday that I used to withdraw within myself and ponder over the events that have clogged my mind's bandwidth.

The conclusion - I need the follows:

Professional
1. Long term professional goal and plan
2. More money

Personal
3. Be less trusting
4. Be more logical & practical
5. Be less empathic
6. Learn to detach myself

Health
7. Need to take care of myself a lot more
8. Peace of mind. Need to unwind and relax

In short I need a renewed life (one without excess baggage) and to kick start that I need a holiday!

Midnight Visitor

2008-09-29T00:03:00.005+05:30

Slippery

2008-09-22T01:08:00.004+05:30

Okay...I goofed up!

I wished an acquaintance of mine 'many happy returns of the day' ... errr.... It was her wedding day!

Hell I never really liked that son of a goat anyway.

Just when I thought I was unique ... ;-)

2008-08-26T22:44:00.005+05:30

Ode to the Nice Guys

Composition of a Wharton Undergraduate

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

Eye Opener...

2008-08-12T01:38:00.005+05:30

Sometimes we refuse to see the obvious and for a couple of months I had been doing just that. It eventually took a trip in the hills of Garhwal for realization to dawn that I needed to visit a ophthalmologist.

So last Saturday I found myself registering at a posh South Delhi eye clinic. The very suave doctor made sure that I understood how our deteriorating environment coupled with my unhealthy lifestyle and erratic hours were the reasons for my slightly blurred headlights. So on Sunday afternoon, following the good doctor's advice (not that I had a choice in the matter) I found myself peering into a mirror at my bespectacled face. Needless to say it helped.

Later that evening armed with my brand new visionary arsenal, I settled down to watch some TV. It struck me as I flicked through the movie channels ... in fact it came like a lightening bolt...! Catherine Zeta Jones, Nicole Kidman, Rene Zellweger even Salma Hayek ... none of them looked the same! Age had effected what I thought were flawless faces, I could now make out their wrinkles even through the multi layered makeup.
I know this sounds foolish but what the hell, some myths are just not worth breaking!

Having witnessed the incredible effect of my new found eyes, I decided to take a break from clear vision and enjoy a slice of some freshly baked pizza. So there I was peacefully propped up in front of my TV on a couch made of pillows and with a strong current of dessert cooler air blowing into my face. I was carefully sprinkling my delicious looking pizza slice with oregano & chili flakes when it happened suddenly and without a warning. The mouth watering but deadly mixture of pizza seasoning flew up and went straight into my eyes @#$%^&*!!!!!!!

It was agonising. I do not have words to define how my eyes burned. Perhaps the reader will understand when I say that I ran to the bathroom and plunged my head in a bucket full of water and promptly set a new record by not surfacing for 10 minutes! (Indian Olympic Association, are you listening) For the next 2 hours my eyes were bloodshot red and resembled a real time photographic aberration. I guess even the resident ghost of my supposedly haunted house must have been scarred out of her wits to look me in the eye.

Those were the adventures of my first day of new visions and clear horizons. I now await another day of revelations.

Blurred Lines

2008-07-26T20:26:00.002+05:30

http://rayshmadoodlez.blogspot.com/2008/07/karma-chameleon.html
The debate continues ...

Why do I even try ?

2008-07-08T15:03:00.004+05:30

At times no matter how hard you try, some people never understand. I don't know if they do so on purpose or they are really confused or they have some inane and obscure motive of their own ... They point is that they simply refuse to see the logic. Makes me wonder why I tried in the first place.

I understand the concept of life coming back full circle but starting all over again from square one ... I draw the line.

Destiny And It's Manifestations

2008-06-27T00:40:00.002+05:30

Destiny in actuality is nothing more than our perception of reality.

Linda Goodman might find my opinion extremely irritating but believe me it's only about the way we look at circumstances that life presents to us. It's like believing that a glass tumbler is half full or half empty.

It's completely in our hands to interpret and analyse a situation, determine our choices and thereby a course of action. The result of this hard work is something that we then attribute to destiny and find a convenient way to blame a nonexistent entity for our incorrect and often absurd perceptions.

Moral of the story: We truly are in control of destiny's manifestations ... after all its only a matter of perception. And we can manage that ... can we ?

One & Many

2008-06-26T23:47:00.002+05:30

"Logic clearly dictates that the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few"
- Captain Spock, Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan

True but not universally correct. Why ?

At the grave risk of sounding extremely selfish, crazy with a micro outlook, I would like to say that unless the needs of the one are satisfied, the needs of the many can never be satiated.

P.S. - Did I say 'grave risk' ... I don't really care as long I believe I am correct.

While you wait for magic...

2008-06-13T00:51:00.002+05:30

"...You need to be a little more mad, less sensible and...i dunno..."

Look Again !

2008-06-11T00:14:00.002+05:30

She: The only thing standing between me and absolute happiness is Reality !

Me: The only thing standing between absolute happiness and reality is You ... Look Again !

Oooooooh ... Aaaaaaaah ...

2008-06-06T14:42:00.003+05:30

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 9 !

Why O why do women absolutely drool over soft toys and discuss their varieties in the most animated fashion? They sound almost orgasmic !

Prize Catch

2008-06-06T13:49:00.005+05:30

This is for all the women who dream of being 'Trophy Wives'

'The golden rule if you are a trophy wife is that you do not stray while the old man is still alive.'
- Sally Burton

PS - Sally the actor Richard Burton a year before he died.

Carnival of Rust

2008-06-04T02:48:00.000+05:30

D' you breath the name of your saviour in your hour of need,
n' taste the blame if the flavor should remind you of greed,
Of implication, insinuation and ill will, till' you cannot lie still,
In all this turmoil, before red cape and foil come closing in for a kill

Come feed the rain
Cos I'm thirsty for your love dancing underneath the skies of lust

Yeah feed the rain
Cos without your love my life ain't nothing but this carnival of rust

It's all a game, avoiding failure, when true colors will bleed
All in the name of misbehavior and the things we don't need
I lust for after no disaster can touch us anymore
And more than ever, I hope to never fall, where enough is not the same it was before

Come feed the rain...
Don't walk away, don't walk away, oh, when the world is burning
Don't walk away, don't walk away, oh, when the heart is yearning

- Poets Of The Fall

Aha !

2008-06-03T22:49:00.002+05:30

Today's fortune: You will always have good luck in your personal affairs.

QW: Wow ! Now I am really waiting :-)

Really...

2008-06-03T16:22:00.003+05:30

If you have false hopes and continue to harbour them, then you are daft.

Addicted

2008-06-03T15:00:00.003+05:30

Coffee is the best thing God created & then proclaimed 'This will save your life' !

Thats my excuse ...

Damn

2008-05-28T19:33:00.001+05:30

It just keeps getting worse ... will this week ever end?

I'm Tired ... Seriosuly

2008-05-26T18:28:00.006+05:30

... Rammed Car
Dripping Wet Phone
Grouchy Boss
Overworked
Underpaid
Backache
Headache
Endless Desires ...

I don't believe in destiny but if its really something then is this it?
I need a break !!! Please...

Artificial Inflation

2008-05-19T01:10:00.005+05:30

Earth calling Moon Rocket ...
General question No. 8 !

Why O why do some women ... Okay hold on ... This deserves a story.

It so happened that a certain Son of Adam was walking down an endless corridor of a newly developed mall in the National Capital Territory of Delhi. As his eyes flicked between a flashy Levis store and a sombre looking book shop, something caught his attention.

Stepping out of the Levis store was a polite looking young lady. There was something odd about her. In fact what was obvious about her was that compared to the rest of her proportions she was rather well endowed ... err extremely well endowed.

Now we all know that staring is not taken well in our civilised society and through the course of the human evolution the male of our species have developed a special instinct known as the ‘Scan’. Scanning enables men to check out the opposite sex in a mere 'off hand manner' without raising any eyebrows. Naturally our Son of Adam too was born with this quality.

So in complete accordance to the will of Mother Nature he scanned the lady who by this time was barely a couple of feet away from him. What he saw jolted him. Across the front of her T-Shirt were the words – “Juicy Juicy Mangoes ...”

Perhaps in the days of yore and in the Garden of Eden this Son of Adam might have reacted differently but in today’s day and age of rising inflation all he wondered was ... Produce of China or USA?

Life & Learnings

2008-05-11T01:18:00.003+05:30

Sometimes life can teach you the cruelest of lessons.

One of them is ... Hoping against hope is foolish because hope is not strategy.
And I'm not likely to forget this one.

The Last Resort

2008-05-11T00:58:00.001+05:30

Sometimes I feel completely torn between the fantasies of my past and the impracticality of their future.

Will the bubble ever burst? And if yes, what will it take to break this reverie?

Will a 160 feet bungee jump liberate my soul? Or a 270 degree swing at 150 kmph wake me up? Or will it take a skydive from 10,000 feet ... The truth is I don't know.

Till then, life is all about 'The Little Pink Frock & A Box of Cadbury's Gems'

All the world's a stage ...

2008-04-29T01:15:00.000+05:30

"Every magic trick consists of three parts, or acts...

The first part is called The Pledge ... the magician shows you something ordinary.
A deck of cards, or a bird or a woman. He shows you this object and pledges to you its utter normality ... perhaps he asks you to inspect it. Unaltered ... normal ?

But, of course, it probably isn't.

The second act is called The Turn...
The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordianry. Now you're looking for the secret. But you won't find it. Because of course, you're not really looking ... you don't really want to know ... you want to be fooled.

That's why every magic trick has a third act. The hardest part ... the part we call ... The Prestige!
Because making something disappear isn't enough, you have to bring it back. Now you're looking for the secret. But you won't find it, because you don't really want to know. You want to be fooled."

And now I've been defined by Facebook ...

2008-04-09T00:20:00.003+05:30

Sanguine
This is the word that best describes you! The dictionary meaning of the adjective sanguine' is cheerfully optimistic! You are usually happy and manage to turn most negative situations into positive ones. Your happy-go-lucky, impulsive and adventurous personality makes you fun to be around although some people mistake your self-confidence for arrogance. Your sanguine disposition will help your life be a happy one; just be wary of dreaming about castles in the sky and forgetting to focus on reality.

Me : Anybody ... anything else ?

Fact or Fiction

2008-04-08T23:40:00.002+05:30

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 7 !

Why O why do women raise their leg when being kissed?
Most of the so called 'moment images' from both movies and posters showcase this as a symbol of divine romance.
Is this true and if yes ... what causes it ???

Its All About Perspectives !

2008-03-28T16:54:00.003+05:30

Source : PhotoYear

Blind Love ?

2008-03-27T01:29:00.004+05:30

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 6 !

Why O why do women more than often fall for a man for all the wrong reasons ?

They then do everything within their power to alter his personality to something they romanticise.

Objective achieved, they begin to miss the man they originally fell in love with and tell him that he has 'Changed' !

Wild Cat !

2008-03-25T22:26:00.004+05:30

It was around 8:00 pm that I found myself driving through a densely forested state highway in the Lower Himalayas. Travelling along was a group of college buddies happily chatting away about a friend’s upcoming wedding. With Don Mclean's ‘Starry Starry Night’ playing softly in the car and the occasional night time jungle sound coming in through the open windows, it seemed like a relaxed and lazy drive.

We had been driving for about half an hour and the songs had shuffled to ‘American Pie’ when the jungle’s peace was abruptly broken by a high pitched screech. Possibly that of a Langur. I slowed down. Suddenly a herd of deer blasted out of the moonlit forest and leaped across the road, their feet barely touching the ground. I slammed the brakes.

We knew that this section of the state highway skirted along the Jim Corbett Wildlife Reserve, known for its tiger population. In hopes of getting lucky I pulled over to the side, switched off the lights and killed the engine. Alone in the middle of a moon bathed jungle and 40 kilometres away from civilization on either side, we waited...

... And waited and waited and waited. It took 45 minutes of sitting without movement and deliberate silence to break our patience. With a general air of disappointment and hollow words of ‘another time ... next time’, it was unanimously decided that we move on. I turned on the ignition, switched on the headlights, engaged the gear and swung back onto the road. Barely had I finished my turn when the car’s light caught a figure. I jammed the brakes once again...

There it was ... The BIGGEST Tiger (male) I have ever seen in its natural habitat !

Barely 12 feet away, it sat there staring directly at us unmoved by the lights or the sound of the engine. Perhaps he had been there all along. Perhaps he just knew that he was the King of the Jungle and that we were completely inconsequential. As if slow motion I slid the car back to its original position but kept the engine running. We sat there for about ten minutes, staring in complete awe at the massive wild cat which seemed quite unaffected by our presence and occasionally gave its tail a royal flick.

We didn’t realize when our silent interview with the tiger got itself an audience. Another car coming in from the opposite side had stopped. It was then that the tiger decided that he was no longer interested in us and after couple of minutes got up and royally swaggered off into the depths of the jungle.

As for us, we continued on our journey. Each one silent and lost in thought, perhaps in reverence to the wild beast that made our day. This time Don Mclean was silent.

Small is Beautiful

2008-03-25T19:31:00.003+05:30

To Err is Human

2008-03-07T12:31:00.003+05:30

Everyday in our lives we walk the very thin line between greed & aspirations. So blurred are the divisions that often we fail to distinguish between the two.

None are spared or can escape this complicated human trait that's so intricately wired into our thought muscles...............

SMS Wisdom :-)

2008-03-04T15:23:00.001+05:30

To be is to do
Socrates

To do is to be
Vivekanand

Do be do be do
Scooby Doo !

Don't We ...

2008-03-04T02:05:00.002+05:30

Its ironic that we faff to save our lives and yet claim that we need depth to lead a meaningful life.

The Wonder Years

2008-02-29T11:08:00.004+05:30

Anatomy of Desire

2008-02-19T16:39:00.002+05:30

One must give up everything to truly posses anything ...

Selective Amnesia

2008-02-12T13:09:00.000+05:30

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 5 !

Why O why do women spend hours in front of a mirror color coordinating their attire from head to toe and then pretend to be unaware ?

If you happen to comment or compliment them ... the answer that you will hear in all probability will be as follows -

"Oh! (looking down) ... Am I ... Really, I didn't even realize ... (fluttering eyes) It like ... just happened ... you know"
...Pause...
"... But thank you !"

What purpose can this selective amnesia possibly serve?
Is it just attention deficiency? Then why deny ... say yes and move on ....

Any answers ...

P.S. - Just in case you were wondering if this was an isolated incident ... I'd say it cuts across every line in the feminine domain.

A Fortune Cookie's Words of Wisdom

2008-01-29T19:36:00.000+05:30

Your conscience never stops you from doing anything. It just stops you from enjoying it.

The Simple Life !

2008-01-29T19:06:00.001+05:30

A signboard in downtown New Delhi

Literally translates to :
One succulent piece of meat...
Two pieces of bread...
(perfectly gels with the universally understood word) ...Bar !

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Low Waist ... On Sale !

2008-01-22T00:04:00.000+05:30

In the midst of all the jostling at a jumbo clearence sale at one of the popular branded clothes store ... somebody was grabbing their pick !

Deja vu

2008-01-19T01:00:00.000+05:30

Now this might sound a bit bizarre ... but for me it's a little surprising and sometimes disconcerting when suddenly things that I have interpreted, analysed and locked away for lack of better judgement or simply given up on are sprung upon me...

Today somebody asked me a question - Why don't you just make choices of convenience ?

Hell !
This subject of convenient choices has the knack of irritating me...

Of course I should ... I need to ... The whole world does it ... Fine !
Happy ?

Everybody knows that you've been faithful, Ah give or take a night or two !

2008-01-11T10:38:00.000+05:30

Everybody knows that the dice are loaded
Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed
Everybody knows that the war is over
Everybody knows the good guys lost
Everybody knows the fight was fixed
The poor stay poor, the rich get rich
Thats how it goes
Everybody knows

Everybody knows that the boat is leaking
Everybody knows that the captain lied
Everybody got this broken feeling
Like their father or their dog just died

Everybody talking to their pockets
Everybody wants a box of chocolates
And a long stem rose
Everybody knows

Everybody knows that you love me baby
Everybody knows that you really do
Everybody knows that youve been faithful
Ah give or take a night or two
Everybody knows youve been discreet
But there were so many people you just had to meet
Without your clothes
And everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows
Thats how it goes
Everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows
Thats how it goes
Everybody knows

And everybody knows that its now or never
Everybody knows that its me or you
And everybody knows that you live forever
Ah when youve done a line or two
Everybody knows the deal is rotten
Old black joes still pickin cotton
For your ribbons and bows
And everybody knows

And everybody knows that the plague is coming
Everybody knows that its moving fast
Everybody knows that the naked man and woman
Are just a shining artifact of the past
Everybody knows the scene is dead
But theres gonna be a meter on your bed
That will disclose
What everybody knows

And everybody knows that youre in trouble
Everybody knows what youve been through
From the bloody cross on top of calvary
To the beach of malibu
Everybody knows its coming apart
Take one last look at this sacred heart
Before it blows
And everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows
Thats how it goes
Everybody knows

Oh everybody knows, everybody knows
Thats how it goes
Everybody knows

Everybody knows

Hope

2008-01-10T00:32:00.000+05:30

Hope. It is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength and your greatest weakness.

- The Architect

Tales of Ordinary Madness

2008-01-03T18:14:00.000+05:30

"Intuition and romantic fatalism shouldn't be taken lightly"
-Love and Other Catastrophes

"The longing for a destiny is nowhere stronger than in our romantic life. All too often forced to share our bed with those who can not fathom our soul, can we not be forgiven if we believe ourselves fated to stumble one day upon the man or woman of our dreams? Can we not be excused a certain superstitious faith in a creature who will prove the solution to our relentless yearning? And though our prayers may never be answered, though there may be no end to the dismal cycle of incomprehension, if the heavens should come to take pity on us, then can we really be expected to attribute the encounter with the prince or princess to mere coincidence? Or can we not for once escape rational censure and read it as nothing other than an inevitable part of our romantic destiny?"
-On Love by Alain de Botton

Thats got to be the best excuse in the world for being a romantic fool. However, put so eloquently, even the fake cynic in me forgives the ones who think prince charming or lady love is right around the corner.

Refreshing !

2007-12-28T07:46:00.000+05:30

In & Out

2007-12-20T01:26:00.000+05:30

Some are born great, some achieve greatness and some have greatness thrust upon them.

Some are born mad, some achieve madness and some bring madness upon them and those around them.

Unfortunately greatness and madness go hand in hand.

What makes all the difference is striking the right the balance ... Its called making a choice !

Day of Revelations

2007-12-19T02:10:00.000+05:30

They say anger greatly reduces the functionality of our brain's logic centres but somehow to my surprise I've learnt the reverse is also true.

I suddenly have answers to so many questions that have puzzled me for the longest time.

And today (now) I can actually sit back and laugh at the ridiculousness of the whole affair. I mean what a fool I've been, its all been so obvious from the start.

Conclusion ? All that thought, energy, emotion, time and even stress ... everything wasted in such an eloquently elegant way ? ... Hmmmnnn ...

Well I don't think so ...

I suppose I've come out of this a lot wiser. Call it 'experience'. At least I now know everything I should internalise with a pinch of salt.

Any Regrets ? ... Ummmnn ... Not really courtesy the experience and the learnings. Though I wish this moment had come much earlier. Would have saved me incredible amounts of time and effort.

Earthquake !

2007-11-26T04:45:00.000+05:30

... Moderate Tremors ...

Should be at least 5 on the Richter scale ...

When Insults Had Class !

2007-11-25T03:25:00.000+05:30

"He has all the virtues I dislike and none of the vices I admire." --Winston Churchill

"I have never killed a man, but I have read many obituaries with great pleasure." -- Clarence Darrow.

"He has never been known to use a word that might send a reader to the dictionary." -- William Faulkner (about Ernest Hemingway)

"I've had a perfectly wonderful evening. But this wasn't it." -- Groucho Marx

"I didn't attend the funeral, but I sent a nice letter saying I approved of it" -- Mark Twain

"He has no enemies, but is intensely disliked by his friends." -- Oscar Wilde

"I am enclosing two tickets to the first night of my new play; bring a friend... If you have one." -- George Bernard Shaw to Winston Churchill

... (followed by Churchill's response)

"Cannot possibly attend first night, will attend second, if there is one." -- Winston Churchill

"I feel so miserable without you; it's almost like having you here." -- Stephen Bishop

"He is a self-made man and worships his creator." -- John Bright

"I've just learned about his illness. Let's hope it's nothing trivial."--Irvin S. Cobb

"He is not only dull himself; he is the cause of dullness in others." -- Samuel Johnson

"He is simply a shiver looking for a spine to run up." -- Paul Keating

"He had delusions of adequacy." -- Walter Kerr

"Why do you sit there looking like an envelope without any address on it?" -- Mark Twain

"His mother should have thrown him away and kept the stork." -- Mae West

"Some cause happiness wherever they go; others, whenever they go." -- Oscar Wilde

Lady Astor once remarked to Winston Churchill at a dinner party, "Winston, if you were my husband, I would poison your coffee!" Winston replied,"Madam if I were your husband I would drink it!"

Mr. Intellectual Once Said ...

2007-11-24T21:55:00.000+05:30

"I must say that I find TV very educational. Everytime somebody turns it on, I go to the library and read a book."

So much for all the hours of research we put in...

Experience

2007-11-21T01:34:00.000+05:30

It's not our abilities that show what we truly are ... It's our choices.

That's what differentiates us from the rest of everybody out there.

... And choices usually are like a double edged sword!

So the next time you make one, be damn sure of what you decide. You might not get another chance.

Reinventing the Wheel

2007-11-18T08:53:00.000+05:30

Some of life's toughest lessons can never be taught ... They just have to be lived, experienced and felt to be learnt.

Yet another night ...

2007-11-16T04:53:00.000+05:30

Physically exhausted

Mentally drained

&
Wide awake

What ?

2007-11-14T14:04:00.000+05:30

I did'nt do it ...
I did'nt control it ...
I can't cure it ...

Chaotic Logic

2007-11-13T14:09:00.000+05:30

Flip through any book of quotable quotes and its more than likely that you'll find the famous lecturer and essayist of the 19th century, Ralph Waldo Emerson declaring with the strongest conviction...

“Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen.”

... Profound... That's what any leadership guru will say. And of course all those who've paid tons of money to hear him faff will shake their heads in unison.

And now the entire thing has been taken to ridiculous levels, courtesy the latest Bollywood money spinner 'Om Shanti Om'. Watch as Shahrukh Khan eloquently uses a mildy distorted version of Emerson's fabled belief more than 6 times to make it the film's punch line ...

May I implore the esteemed brains of this world to please take a moment and think about what Mr. Emerson believed to be so true and what 99% percent of today's advise / love gurus use to make money...

I mean think about it ... if simply deciding was enough to force things to happen, life would have been so damn neat.
Hell ... I want / had decided to be the richest guy in the world in pre school !
The Result - All the conspiracies have happened ... life is a goddamn mess and I am nowhere bloody close to it.

And then I read somewhere 'you need to decide from your heart and not just your brian ....'

Bull Shit !

A Slice Of My Life

2007-11-13T03:30:00.000+05:30

If ever in my lifetime I make the mistake of being lost between fantasy and reality, remind of a story. Its called...

'The Little Pink Frock & A Box of Cadbury's Gems'

Morning Glory

2007-10-26T00:01:00.000+05:30

A smile erupted from the very depths of his heart and spread across his face like the morning sun

P.S. - Kindly excuse the photgraphic quality. Picture taken on a humble 3.2 MP cell phone camera.

Scorpio

2007-09-21T01:31:00.000+05:30

I was recently gifted a coffee mug by a very dear friend. Inside the nicely packaged box was a parchment (reproduced below) that supposedly told me the tale of my personality traits.
That I was born under the sign of Scorpio is no secret but am I the Scorpio as detailed in the parchment ?
Well...

Scorpio
October 23 To November 21

Passionate & Determined

Scorpio is the eighth sign of the zodiac. Those born under this Sign are dead serious about their mission to learn about others. There's no fluff or chatter for Scorpios either; these folks will zero in on the essential questions, gleaning the secrets that lie within.

Scorpios concern themselves with the beginnings and endings and are unafraid of either; they also travel in a world which is black and white and has little use for grey. Its the scorpion which symbolises Scorpios and its no accident. Much like the Scorpion that would rather kill itself that be killed.

Those born under this sign are the ones who are in ultimate control of their destiny. Fearless Scorpio's rarely lose. They just keep going on since they are stubborn and determined to succeed.
They tend to skip the kiss and get on straight to whatever comes next.

Scorpio's Key Phrase - I create

Scorpio's Pick-up line - You're place or mine ?

Scorpio's Colours - Deep Red, Black & Indigo

Scorpio's Gems - Bloodstone, Opal & Garnet
Scorpio's Metal - Plutonium
Scorpio's Coffee Choice - Never prone to self denial, Scorpio opts for all the sensuality of a latte. One can barely taste the coffee but isn't subtlety the name of the game

Simple Pleasures of Life

2007-09-19T00:28:00.000+05:30

Sin Delicious

2007-09-17T10:44:00.000+05:30

Did you know that Barista Coffee has an extremely indulgent dessert on their menu ?

Its called Dark Temptation !
(Warm chocolate Excess served with ice cream and whipped cream, topped with hot chocolate fudge)

Now that's what I call absolute ecstasy !

Hhmmmnnnn..........

Small Fires

2007-09-07T12:20:00.000+05:30

Read this on a box of matches.

A fine is a tax for doing wrong. A tax is a fine for doing well.

Talk about small revolutions.

Watched

2007-09-06T13:07:00.000+05:30

At the stroke of the midnight hour while the terrorists plotted and the robbers planned ... I found my watch.

All I now hope for is 'World Peace' !

Principle of Selectivity

2007-08-31T00:24:00.000+05:30

The flip side of secularism is that you are free to be a fundamentalist.

Incredible but sadly true.

Line of Fire

2007-08-29T01:41:00.000+05:30

What wrong have I done to deserve the pain, anguish and madness that seems to govern my life ?

Do I really deserve this ?

I hope not and pray not !

At times I wonder ... Do I expect too much from myself ?

The Drunken Duck

2007-08-24T15:59:00.002+05:30

In all my experience of being around drunken / sloshed men & women, I've figured that behavior of all such people can be classified into 6 broad categories.

1. Boastful
2. Stupid Anger
3. Extreme grief
4. Mirthless laughter or happiness
5. Baseless affection / romance / sexual attraction
6. Idiotic philosophy

Can sum it all in two words - Raving lunacy

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

2007-08-24T02:04:00.000+05:30

'...so God said "Let their be light" and there was light...'

In a setting just as theatrical I've come to realize and understand a few things about myself. And so as has become customary, I shall let my new found divine enlightenment known to the cybernetic world.

1. I hate / condemn / frown upon (as applicable)

a) Self pity & people who indulge in it.

b) Two faced people (crooks). In fact I happen to know a certain variety of Hydra as well.

c) Lack of common sense.

d) Verbal diarrhoea. (senseless stuff)

e) Stubborn dolts.

f) Gay pride parade. I mean I'm straight but I don't go parading down the damn street with a flag advertising it.

g) Certain bitches & bastards. I tolerate a lot of them.

i) The statement 'True love is ...' & the question 'What is true love?'

F*** Off ! Do some work.

j) Show offs. Specially the yuppie puppies.

k) Pseudo class.

2. I love / admire / respect (as applicable)

a) Intelligent, honest, simple and straightforward people. I belive this genre of humankind forms a microscopic percentile that I'm still searching for.

b) Hardworking people with a sense of responsibility and purpose.

c) Selfless people. I'm not advocating anyone to be a sage and renounce the world but simply referring to those who are empathetic to others.

d) Nature.

e) Small pleasures of life.

f) Photography, computers, books, music & movies.

g) My friends.

i) Quest for knowledge. The constant endeavour to better oneself.

k) Money

3. Realizations

a) A Matter of Convenience

After 27 years of existence I have finally learnt the benefits of doing things to suit my convenience. For the perfectionist that I am I've understood that saving lives is not my profession. I just need to do my best and that's it. (period) You might argue "but that's how it should be." Well, I used to usually put my entire life's worth into anything I did. But not anymore. I do a job, like a job and to the very best of my ability (no compromises there). Its just that I no longer make it my life's work. Its not worth it.

Recently, I was asked if I plan to implement the 'Convenience' principle in my personal life. Earlier I wasn't very keen about the whole thing but with the breaking dawn I've realised I seem to be the only idiot not doing so. So well ... here goes.

b) Nothing is impossible because everything is possible. Naturally I am talking about practical stuff.

c) Chaos Theory stands true.

d) People who bull shit go a long way. But I'm still not going to do it. (knowingly)

e) True love is a myth.

f) Life always comes a full circle.

Thank you for your patience.

Sincerely yours,

The Saint.

Issued In Public Interest (Version 1)

The Pursuit of Happiness

2007-08-11T16:34:00.000+05:30

The United States' Declaration of Independence lists three aspects as the "unalienable rights" of man - "Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness". Penned by Thomas Jefferson and often referred to as the 'Great American Dream' this phrase has motivated millions. Infact so strong and deep is its influence that people across the world waste their entire lives in an attempt to live up to it.

When I say waste it is not my intention to vandalise the belief of others but its simply that like F. Scott Fitzgerald I am rather uncomfortable with the unrestrained materialism and lack of morality that creeps in with it.

For me happiness is a moment in time and a state of mind where one feels that 'life is good'. Its pointless to waste time and effort searching for peace and contentment and joy in the world outside. Happiness is something extremely personal, its more than just an experience of joy or pleasure.

Today, I think I have learnt to revel in those moments and then move on ...

The Game

2007-07-27T00:17:00.000+05:30

If you've seen 'The Game' (starring Micheal Douglas) you'll understand what I mean when I say that nothing is impossible to plot, plan or execute.

But when the best laid plans crumble right before thy eyes. It feels terrible in fact it feels horrible or sad or worse...

Q1. Why does this happen ?

Q2. How do I prevent it from happening again ?

Q3. How do I control the variables repsonsible ?

Q4. Do the variables want to be controlled ?

Q5. Do I really want to control the variables ?

Q6. Does it really matter ? (remember ... horrible ... terrible ... sad)

(...and please lets stop blaming poor destiny for everything because destiny cannot even control itself let alone the chaos of the world)

Angry

2007-07-22T01:12:00.000+05:30

Pissed as hell ?

Oh yes!
I am ...

The Story of My Life

2007-07-19T15:51:00.000+05:30

There are various kinds of stories.

1. Real life stories
2. Reel life stories
3. Life stories
4. Real stories
5. Larger than life stories
6. Metaphysical stories
7. Mythical stories
8. Mad stories
9. Fantasy stories
10. Dreamworld world
11. Crazy stories
12. Moral stories
13. Immoral stories
14. False stories
15. Cooked up stories
16. Thought of stories
17. Candy floss stories
18. Bed time stories
19. Moon light stories
20. Fairy stories
21. War stories
22. Peace stories
23. Hate stories
24. Horror stories
25. Practical stories
26. Sad Stories
27. Happy stories
28. Love stories
29. Heartbreak stories
30. Bitchy stories
31. Confused stories

The list goes on

Helloooooooo ............... Which one is mine ?

Colour Blind? ... Try Black & White.

2007-07-09T02:17:00.000+05:30

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 4 !

Why O why does the human race perceive the world with all its seemingly immense possibilities as vivid high definition multi million colour shades ?

Its always the same story - the eternal search for perfection... the exact meaning... the right understanding... the electrifying connect... the right motive... Blah... Blah... Blah...

The problem is that our processing power is limited and we get thoroughly confused by the sheer number and complexity of shades that the spectrum of life presents. This inevitably leads to total chaos.

What nobody seems to understand is that life with all its possibilities will become much simpler to comprehend and far easier to tackle if we were to simply interpret everything as single blocks of Black & White. Simply put; just use logic and give up interpretation and analysis.

Now I have on several occassions been informed that this is impossible.
But ladies and gentlemen, trust me ... Try and thy shall succeed.

Afterall logic, though rare is not impossible to find.

Heres a hint - begin with common sense.

Romantic Reality

2007-07-05T09:08:00.000+05:30

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 3 !

Why O why does the human race need to romanticize everything ?
By everything I mean right from the mole to the mountain.
Why can't people just get real. And that includes me

Romance
[n., adj. roh-mans, roh-mans; v. roh-mans]
noun, verb, -manced, -manc·ing, adjective

1. a novel or other prose narrative depicting heroic or marvelous deeds, pageantry, romantic exploits, etc., usually in a historical or imaginary setting.
2. the colorful world, life, or conditions depicted in such tales.
3. a medieval narrative, originally one in verse and in some Romance dialect, treating of heroic, fantastic, or supernatural events, often in the form of allegory.
4. a baseless, made-up story, usually full of exaggeration or fanciful invention.
5. a romantic spirit, sentiment, emotion, or desire.
6. romantic character or quality.
7. a romantic affair or experience; a love affair.
8. (initial capital letter) Also, Romanic. Also called Romance languages. the group of Italic Indo-European languages descended since a.d. 800 from Latin, as French, Spanish, Italian, Portuguese, Romanian, Provençal, Catalan, Rhaeto-Romanic, Sardinian, and Ladino. Abbreviation: Rom. –verb (used without object)
9. to invent or relate romances; indulge in fanciful or extravagant stories or daydreams.
10. to think or talk romantically. –verb (used with object)
11. Informal. a. to court or woo romantically; treat with ardor or chivalrousness: He's currently romancing a very attractive widow. b. to court the favor of or make overtures to; play up to: They need to romance the local business community if they expect to do business here. –adjective
12. (initial capital letter) Also, Romanic. of, pertaining to, or noting Romance: a Romance language.

—Synonyms 1. story, fiction. 4. falsehood, fable. 6. allure, fascination, exoticism.

Fluoxetine Hydrochloride

2007-07-02T01:44:00.000+05:30

Either pay me half a million rupees (5 lakhs) a month or give me 5 tablets of Prozac everyday.
Thanks.

Food 4 Thought !

2007-06-27T14:34:00.000+05:30

"Please don't mistake my anal retentiveness for actual affection"
-Desperate Housewives

For the record I haven't seen a single episode till date ...

Knee Jerk Reaction to Ha Ha Ha...

2007-06-26T19:07:00.001+05:30

Guess what my boss just told me - emphatically ... "Your problem is that your (my) character is embedded in the first poem. Be the second."

And here I thought I was just being a normal guy ... Damn !

Ha Ha Ha ...

2007-06-26T18:58:00.000+05:30

Here's a brilliant forward I received !

WOMAN'S POEM
Before I lay me down to sleep,
I pray for a man, who's not a creep,
One who's handsome, smart and strong.
One who loves to listen long,
One who thinks before he speaks,
One who'll call, not wait for weeks.
I pray he's gainfully employed,
When I spend his cash, won't be annoyed.
Pulls out my chair and opens my door,
Massages my back and begs to do more.
Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind,
Knows what to answer to 'how big is my behind?'
I pray that this man will love me to no end,
And always be my very best friend.

MAN'S POEM
I pray for a deaf-mute nymphomaniac with huge boobs
who owns a liquor store and a golf course.
This doesn't rhyme and I don't give a sh*t

Before Sunrise...

2007-06-26T10:33:00.000+05:30

... Clap of thunder
Streak of lightening
Touch of zephyr ...

BUT

No soaring emotions
No heightened spirits
No great expectations

JUST

Calm
Cold
Clinical

Is this me ?

Constant Change

2007-06-22T01:35:00.000+05:30

The eternal constant.

Sometimes positive ... sometimes negative .... and at times unbearable.

If its there, its there for a reason .... After all every action has an equal an opposite reaction. So in essence the reaction (change) is a always courtesy of some action.

One may hate it ... one may love it ... but nobody can ignore it.

Simply Perfect ...

2007-06-12T23:31:00.000+05:30

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 2 !

Why O why is perfection completely attainable in almost everything except in things that one truly wants to be perfect ?

Some say its ... Destiny
Some ... Fate
Others ... Chaos
The rest just blame it on sheer bad luck.

Moral of the story ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ??? ??? ???

Heavens above ... Answer this !

2007-06-07T00:37:00.000+05:30

Earth calling Moon Rocket ....
General question No. 1 !

Why O why do women without discrimination of religion, colour, race, caste or creed absolutely love to be told that they are the most beautiful creatures in the world ? Every time? Everyday?

The Predicament

2007-06-06T08:41:00.000+05:30

What happens when two sides are faced with a situation where their interests lie on different tracks?
Needless to say that it’s a high voltage situation with a long list of variables where the stakes are sky high and the losses are mounting.

What options are available to the two sides?
What do they do ?

What can they do ?

Let’s take a hard analytical look at this problem. Broadly they have 3 logical solutions.

1. Discuss the problem in a civilized manner and come to a mutually agreeable solution i.e. find a solution through which both gain. Together they decide to overcome obstacles and walk out victorious. In short they live happily ever after.

2. Discuss the problem in a civilized manner and come to a compromise so they don’t exactly live happily ever after but agree to live and let live i.e. they decide to stay out of each other’s hair. In short status quo is maintained.

3. Aha … Here lies the problem !
This is called a standoff. Talks breakdown or reach a point where Options 1 and 2 are just not viable for any one of the two sides or maybe for both. What should be done …

Solution 3 (a) -> Declare war – To the end …
Solution 3 (b) -> Start public campaigns to swing general opinion in ones favor and try to influence the outcome.
Solution (c) -> Use subversive and covert means to spread rumors, image hurting operation etc.

But what happens if both sides are intelligent and civilized people, who value trust, honesty and practice non violence? (Worse they belive in it !) Should they be forced to suffer the consequences of their good intentions ?

No ... !

That’s exactly my point … NO.

But then ‘What do they do ?’ ...

What to do and What not to do ?’

The Eternal Madness of the Unquiet Mind

2007-05-30T17:25:00.000+05:30

Today, the so called Master of Disaster Management feels completely blown away. I've always managed my way out of the worst and the most impossible of situations but for once I have no solution to my predicament.

Its almost as if my my mind is playing 'Ring a ring O'Roses' and is forcing me to fall down.

Maybe I've lost my touch ... completely.

I'm tired ...

What I need is a miracle ...

... Afterglow

2007-05-28T11:58:00.000+05:30

Here I am, lost in the light of the moon that comes through my window
Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses
It's you and the roses

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way when I see your eyes
Now I'm living in your afterglow

Here I am, lost in the ashes of time, but who wants tomorrow?
In between the longing to hold you again
I'm caught in your shadow, I'm losing control
My mind drifts away, we only have today

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way
I will sacrifice 'til the blinding day when I see your eyes
Now I'm living in your afterglow

When the faith has gone as I let you go, as I let you go

Touch me and I will follow in your afterglow
Heal me from all this sorrow
As I let you go I will find my way, I will sacrifice
Now I'm living in your afterglow

Bathed in blue, the walls of my memory divide the thorns from the roses
It's you who is closest

The Saint

2007-05-23T02:07:00.000+05:30

Today a question that honestly deserves some introspection was fired at me and that too straight out of the blue... (The text is not verbatim)

Are you really as saintly as you appear to be in terms of women or ... ?

Taken aback by the way this googly was tossed at me, I was at first a little unsure about the way I was required to answer this question. Sense however prevailed and I managed the answer but not before I quizzed my interviewer about the defination of the term 'Saintly'.

My Question : How does one define the term 'saintly' and what does 'in terms of women' mean ?
This probe found me the following answer.
Unsaintly behavior in terms of women - Person who flirts with the intent of oogling and may take immense pleasure in doing so. (There are some who do it compulsively)

My answer was somewhat close to the following ... I'm a guy and I'm straight so essentially I have my beliefs and my thoughts in the right place (Fact). And I definately don't oogle at women because I consider it extremely obscene and an invasion of privacy. I don't deny an occasional flirting on my part but its limited to ladies who know me well and who I hope have the mindspace and intellegence for it. My apologies but I have no patience for dumb women (or anyone for that matter).

My answer did not seem to completely satisfy my quizmaster so another twist was popped on me.

So are you implying that you are not interested in women and that you don't look at them?

Me : Well as I mentioned before I'm straight. But there is a definate fat line of distnction between oogling and what we men call a quick scan or glance.

Quizmaster : Hmmnnnn.... (the topic drifted to something else)

Much later in the evening it occured to me that human actions and opinions are to a huge degree precipitated by past experiences and the emotional traces that they leave. So there are usually some undercurrents that linger through and manage to affect the way we percieve situations.

In my case ... I think I'll just say ... Once smitten forever shy.

Time Machine

2007-04-18T00:21:00.000+05:30

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins
And now, I don't care
I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can't touch
I'm torn

- Natalie Imbruglia

The Illusion of Choice

2007-04-11T12:51:00.000+05:30

"...the problem indeed is the choice itself, one which would not be present without the very predication of the anomaly, the remainder, the incalculable sense of hope, but also the endlessly deferred affirmative difference."

Dreamy Desire

2007-03-26T02:18:00.000+05:30

I've always maintained that to get what you desire in life, all it takes is a blend of three simple ingredients.

(a) Lots of common sense
(b) A healthy measure of creative energy
(c) And a dash of dream (worth chasing)

Materialistic or otherwise ... This concoction always gets you there ... well almost always.

Its this dream, the smallest measure of all ingredients that fuels the fire of imagination and brews the blend of both senses. But it is here that lies the problem.
Confused ! I'll explain ...

We as human beings have two centres of thought (my views only).

(a) The Brain ... determined, cold, calculating, methodical, hard and selfish.
(b) The Heart ... illusionist, fickle yet rigid in belief, unconditional and a traveler of sorts.

Now a desire or wish that we so ardently want fulfilled is something that the heart usually comes across on one of its travels. (Exceptions to the rule exist in the form of needs which are better perceived by the brain) The dream of seeing that desire fulfilled is nothing but an illusion of the heart that sets ablaze the fuel to kick start the tremendous power of the brain. So phenomenal is this power that once unleashed it does not rest till the desire is no longer a dream but a reality. In other words our common and creative senses jointly referred to as logic take over.

Sounds good ... doesn't it. So where is the problem ... Hmmnnn ... good question !

The problem lies in the heart. For it is here that the desire takes birth and dream takes wings. And its this flight of fantasy that our brain attempts to rationalize. Moral of the story - Logic has a foundation in air !

If only I had understood this earlier ... Life would have been so much simpler. But would it have been as beautiful as it was while I chased this dreamy desire ... No !

So what should I do ... listen to heart or my brain ?
Because both are right on all counts !!! Yes. They are !
I don't know...

As for me ... I've been left with an incredible imprint that will last an eternity and perhaps ... even longer ... !

Things money can't buy ...

2007-03-20T20:52:00.000+05:30

Colleague : Hey! I'm just stepping out to the malls for a spot of shopping. Do you want me to get you something ?

Me : Peace of mind ...

Colleague : !#$%^&*()_+{}}":?><

Me : Never mind ...

Eternal Fragrance

2007-03-19T23:13:00.000+05:30

Incredible Junction - The Transit

2007-03-18T03:58:00.000+05:30

For once I wanted to take a long flight ... To fly beyond my space ... Without thinking about so many things ... But then reality took over ... And I curtailed myself.

Now some chapters from my book will have to be closed ... But their fragrance will stay forever ... Till ETERNITY !

01:14:24 AM
Sunday, 18 March, 2007

Today's Fortune

2007-02-26T21:33:00.000+05:30

The heart is wiser than the intellect.

Me : Is it ... ?

Analysis and Interpretation !

2007-02-14T16:43:00.000+05:30

This Valentines most sought after 'Doctor Ship's (Relationship's) advice !

(By the way from this day hence, I (Dr Ship) am going to start charging for all the advise that I give ... no matter what the topic)

Okay .... All agony aunts and uncles, several councillors, psychologists, psychiatrists and matchmakers will be out of job if couples with troubled relationships follow this one advise.

If you have a problem with your whoever ... Don't brood over them ... Discuss them.
Break the problem down ... Don't break down ... Talk it out.
Don't just sit there thinking what he/she said and what he/she meant. Its just not worth the trouble ... trust me. Instead just walk over ... get into a solution mode and request your partner in crime to do the same and thrash that issue out.

The moment couples get into the analysis and interpretation of what was said and what it meant or worse what was intended or indicated or implied or any such intangible confusion ... disaster reigns !

If despite your best efforts your other half (note : I'm not saying better) refuses to participate in your efforts ... Follow the Traffic Signs! (simplest signals ever created)

Stop ... Look ... Move ON !
(open to analysis and interpretation ... ha ha Got you there !!! Well get your thinking caps on !)

And to make things light at the end of this extremely difficult lesson, here's a forward that I got today....

A man walking along a California beach was deep in prayer.

Suddenly the sky clouded above his head and, in a booming voice, the Lord said,
"Because you have TRIED to be faithful to me in all ways, I will grant you one wish."

The man said, "Build a bridge to Hawaii so I can drive over anytime I want."

The Lord said, "Your request is very materialistic. Think of the enormous challenges for that kind of undertaking. The supports required to reach the bottom of the Pacific! The concrete and steel it would take! It will nearly exhaust several natural resources. I can do it, but it is hard for me to justify your desire for worldly things. Take a little more time and think of something that would honor and glorify me."

The man thought about it for a long time.

Finally he said, "Lord, I wish that I could understand my girlfriend. I want to know how she feels inside, what she's thinking when she gives me the silent treatment, why she cries, what she means when she says 'nothings wrong,' and how I can make a woman truly happy."

The Lord replied, "You want two lanes or four on that bridge?"

Make time or Miss out ...

2007-02-06T00:59:00.000+05:30

Davies the poet who got nothing of what he deserved but still managed to simplify the choas of modern life into words that will continue to reverberate even in the eaons to come ... I salute you.

'Leisure'
- By William Henry Davies

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.

A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

Five For Fighting

2007-02-04T08:03:00.000+05:30

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird
I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd
But don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won’t you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away, away from me
It’s all right
You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy, or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me.....inside of me

It’s not easy to be me

Should Truth Prevail ?

2007-02-04T00:21:00.000+05:30

I think honesty and truth are not synonymous with each other ... just like excellence is not synonymous with perfection ...

But then this is what I think ... and these days I don't really think that matters much.

The very meaning of a 'Meaningful Life ...'

2007-02-03T09:54:00.000+05:30

Recently while on one of my endless drives back from office I was assaulted with a question. Endless because the traffic crawls slower than an earthworm and assaulted because I was a million miles away trying to breakdown the theory of the infamous Freudian slip. (After Willy he's next ...)

She : What do you think is the meaning of having a meaningful life ?
Me : Whoa !!! Where did that come from ??? (To both myself and her)

She : No. Generally.
Me : Well...
(Suddenly jolted out of my reverie ... I managed not to come up with an instant answer which would in any case have been very hollow)
Me : I think .... It could mean different things to different people ... (my voice faded off)

All possible answers beginning from the mystical to the mythical and even the metaphysical seemed to flow through my head but nothing clicked.

In the very awkward silence that followed the sound emanating from my car's stereo seemed rather loud ... I turned it down. The traffic moved another pace but the silence remained unbroken. On another day or at another time this question might not have instigated my brain cells the way it did then. Perhaps it was the intensity with which the question was put that forced me into a thoughtful coma ...

Next Day.

I enter office too busy with my 'To Do' list to lend any further thought to the question that had plagued my mind the previous day...
And then I saw it. A framed poster that's been hanging in my office for all the five years that I have worked here. Its a poster that displays the famous monologue voiced over by Mark Renton at the beginning of the film, Trainspotting.

And I thought maybe there's something here (pasted below) !!!

Its titled - Choose Life. Pardon the liberal use of the F word ... not my taste but it had to be a true representation.

Choose Life.
Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourself.

Choose your future.

Choose life.

Whats The Scene ...

2007-01-30T17:08:00.000+05:30

Restless energy
Super good weather
Nowhere to go
Tired mind
Too much work
Boring atmosphere
Emotional mind
No relief
Cloudy night sky
Ray of light
Second chance
Desperate measures
Clap of thunder
Depth of silence
So little time
Hope...